Why Do They Keep Pushing Me

why do they keep pushing me

I thought we’re family,

you’ all should be supporting me

when I take the wrong route’ correcting me

when I say the wrong things’ coaching me

when I fall off my feet’ lifting me

when I get hurt’ comforting me


why do they keep pushing me

I thought we’re friends,

you’ all should be standing right beside me

when I get into a fight, you fight for me

when I mess up in life, you cover for me

when I break the code, you hug and forgive me

when I am lonely, you are lonely with me


why do they keep pushing me

I thought you’re my girl,

you should be comforting me

when I cry, you cry with me

when I am sad, you bring the happy out of me

when I am negative, you push your positive inside of me

when I break your heart, you listen to my apology

cause when I am in love…, I want only you beside me




Light of Greatness

I can hear my phone ring, who is calling me

upon checking I see “Greatness”

I am like who is this ?…Greatness calling me!?

I had only two options

the Green or the Red button


but before i dig in

I ask the question “Why me”?

mean while the phone is still ringing

a different thought came up to me while standing

cracking my brain trying to understand it

…..Time is passing

the phone will not forever be ringing

delete the fears and grab on to the handle

I picked up the phone and answered it

and all went dark for a second

I was scared

thinking of whom to call upon for help

I proceeded and said “hello” trying to overcome my fears

suddenly I saw a light blinking from far

I looked at it, I stared at it but yet it did not come

I was alone in my thoughts,

It was like I alone supported my thoughts

I started walking towards the light as it gets brighter

a storm came from the middle of no where


The wind pushed me, lightening struck me, the rain washed me

I looked back, it was all clear, no storm

I looked forward I could not see anything but the light

my heart was sprinting and my brain began to freeze

I had two only options

I could turn back, and settle to where I knew

or I could continue forward to reach the light I wanted to achieve

Yet again, Time and Resources are not by my side

So I sailed upon my destination heading North

closer and closer and closer I got to the light

The less turbulence began to decrease

my movement began to come with ease

Finally, I reached the light and everything else turned bright


Light of greatness is never far from your sight

If you waste time, who knows when you will die

whatever course you take, has challenges, such is life

Choice is an irony of success, you would have to take time to decide

and if time is not by your side, who’s side is choice ?




What is “Love”

Romance is overrated

Love is underrated

A relationship now is something that is hated

it is scary how being in love is outdated

everything now has to be romantic or it’s not wanted

parents and kids all out to get their animal side inflated

Everyone’s relationship status is complicated

This logic of theirs’ is cemented you cannot even debate it

They’ve fallen victim to the system, how do we save them


Romance is overrated

Love is underrated

the norm has become old skull

the terms are now in favour of their rule

the word “Love” has been diminished down to a tool

“I love you’ only to get what I need off/of you”

after that we are through

They say ‘we need to be politically correct’

I personally am not a politician so that statement, I neglect

remember, Not every good idea makes sense

but no good idea is nonsense



Human Pride

It has never always been about me

I woke up feeling good and a little lucky

first thing I do is look up and say Thank You

A little flash back in time, won’t hurt you

they say” what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”

what doesn’t harm you?…does it make you any weaker

When you dig deep – the people you affect around you

what if you don’t affect them, does that make them losers

it could be that their life challenges is even greater

This life we seem to play about with is like a movie theatre

everyone has their role to play and there is no director

good or bad a scene the camera keeps rolling

It is left to you to make right of the past and keep moving

some deny their mistakes which is very amusing

they make you believe this is what it means to be a human being

They come at you with certificates and logic

“This world has existed for millions of years” no it haven’t

This world started existing the day you were born

Using their logic, that is how history gets reformed

take a look, what they did to the bible

they fool around with your brain using numbers, calling you dumb

Yes, he is a professor but that does not say he cannot be wrong

This movie of ours shifted from Romance and adventure to thriller, sci-fi and drama

For one to be right, it has to be shown on paper

we have devalued the human brain like a wild creature

we look down too much, I think we need to start looking up

open your eyes and mind a little, we need to wake up

Ignorance + arrogance = greedy people’ and that needs to stop

first step, look around and appreciate what you have

being Thankful leads to sharing

They say “sharing is caring”, and that is how we look after one another.

Love Goldmine

I woke up this morning thinking about you

nothing surprising since my heart longs for you

but it is surprising the things I could do for you

I never saw this type of feeling coming from the blue

I cannot say how you feel, but if you were in my shoes

you would see how my heart is juicing out like some BBQ

I mean its jumping happy like a kangaroo

Baby girl your love taste like honeydew **Wink

I could never see it coming even through a deja vu

The way you got me, it’s like you did some magic or voodoo

I mean you got my heart on a love curfew

all I want is to see you happy

funny how I think of your happiness before mine

I just want to see you fly and shine

what’s going on between us is something I cannot define

I hope and wish it has no deadline

and also hope and wish our feelings never decline

right now I am smiling ‘thinking of our bloodline’

if gold was happiness, baby girl you are my everlasting goldmine

Life’s Journey

I know tomorrow is not promised but I hope it is

This life we are living is merely lucks and guesses

Heaven or hell, nobody knows what the address is

The journey, if you look at it is really scary

Not saying it cannot be roses and berries

We are slaves to this journey and the loads it carry


It is only right for you to be worried

When you find yourself powerless to a current situation

As time goes by, the load gets more heavy


At first the emotions, you try to bury

Hoping to find for yourself a sanctuary

You remember the saying “every condition is temporary”

But yours just continues to becomes more deadly

Your circle begins to turn smaller and messy

Happiness and peace starts to seem like a camp fire story

Your tolerance begins to drop and patience…

…you’re on the verge of having none

Your struggles have just began

Everything seems dark, you cannot even recognise the sun


Giving up seems to be the best option

You have screamed and cried and even tried using a gun


But inside, you know you cannot give the devil what he wants

Your thoughts and actions begin to get distorted

Sleep now for you is very limited

Everybody else around seems happy and to their life committed

Your pain ignored, it means nothing to them


You begin to wish for death to come

Your emotions begins to go numb

The weather for you comes with a heavy storm

But you are just one under the same weather

One with his own problems

One that is not flawless

One that is on a journey filled with rules but yet lawless

Snowfall in Shimla

In time of sorrow do not only think of yourself

Think of everyone else

Use the energy of people around you but stay cautious

Do not let your emotions get the best of you and go thoughtless

Always be loyal to your fault and remain honest

You are but one tree inside a mighty forest

The journey is awful, the road is spooky from morning to night

To survive you need to understand LEFT and RIGHT

And one day EVERYTHING will be ALRIGHT

Welcome to the journey of life where it is DARK but you have to stand up to see LIGHT




The Paint Brush

A paint brush can paint a picture 

ones’ twist that gets the mind richer 

bunch of colours to a certain structure

all it takes is the right mixture 

and the mind could create its theatre 

past worries gone and life getting better 

the mind throws out unwanted folders 

one begins to keep positive composure


black and white as the paint brush over 

life lessons comes but like a rollercoaster 

grab the brush cause to your life, you are the owner 

If your life was human, would you date her ?

Paint your Life




Fight with Love ?

They say good things come when you wait for it

I have been waiting so long that my heart went numb

I was patient because I believe the best is yet to come

till one day, my heart started beating like drum

anxiety kicks in – like something is about come

emotions heightened not knowing what direction

or what is what


I tried fighting it but there is no shortcut

a desire that comes needs to play its course

the more I think of it, my heart race faster like a horse

I was looking for a cure but “oh No” said the nurse

as time goes by the situation continues to worse

the force comes harder and deep, like a curse

but their is a sauce to it that I could not ignore

it seemed so innocent and very pure

a type of feeling I have never had before

and it is nothing you could find or read in a bookstore

now the feeling has mature and becoming to hard to endure

I do not know what It is but I am curious and scared to explore

I am tired, I cannot take it anymore

I took a couple bottles mixed with beer but it’s still there

That L-word has a strong sting to it and it does not care

no matter the fight one day you will let it clear

“don’t fight the feelings” this is a quote I could always tell


Open-up your mind and stay true to who you are, love will always find you, and when it does please accept it. You will might miss out on life fighting a battle that is not there, a battle between you and you, a battle from setting you heart free.


Love, sounds simple don’t it? because it is. Live while you can, Love as much as you can




Love and Pain

The distance between birth and death

Comes hardship that takes away ones breath

Thou smiles are never far away

Ye never shy away from love

Yet all love comes with is but pain

Love is pain


The beauty when one looks into your eyes

The joy from within digging from the heart

When both hearts clash, the world shakes

It starts off as the best feeling one could imagine

With time comes reality, and reality is painful

which is why we imagine, to hide the pain

not the most accurate but a helpful way

pain is love

and that is the beauty of living


Ahmad Abdul-one  © Copyright 2017.

Dark Night

When you’re hurt they don’t cry for you 

When you’re down they don’t side with you 

As soon as the table switch they’re going to ride with you 

Funny, they claim they would always care for you 

Out of the blue they will always be there for you 

But in the dark, nobody is there but you 


How could this be clear to you 

The hierarchy does not even give stairs to you 

How do you climb up, when they only steer down at you 

Ill is not an option, they do not give rest to you 

So when you are gone it is just they are clear of you 

Sad isn’t it, how they despair of you 

Moments of need, you are like Pikachu


Everyone trying to play you 

You are like a gum to them, you are done with after a couple chew 

Every bit of progress you make they undo 

Your section seems like the junk in yahoo 

Yet you remain positive to all they throw at you 

Your time is coming the clock is on tick tack 

It is all about progression no time for payback

The table has turned now who has the black jack 

All the pain to you is now a throwback 

The experience is key in avoiding any set back 

They denied you their ride, now you are riding in your Maybach 

Life is a b!tch and she’s gorgeous on your side 

be humble or get dropped, its too late to look back 

no one is living for you, you need to understand that 

life does not come with a manual nor a lifeguard 

they say you rip what you sew; I guess you ripped right 

Time is key, and she is not on anyones side 

Today or tomorrow, one day we are all going to die